Jane Ballot

Being me in the world

Monday 17th August

Every time I take a literal journey, I am reminded of all the figurative journeys we take all the time. There is, of course, the saying: “Life’s a journey, enjoy the ride.” This is not always possible, when there are aspects of the bigger journey, or whole specific journeys, that are taxing and emotionally demanding…

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Sunday 16th August

Today was a good day. I enjoy looking back at a day and thinking about what I have got done, who I have done it with and how it has gone. I have to confess that, being an incurable optimist, most days are good for me. Sure, there will be moments (even hours) when ‘good’…

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Saturday 15th August

Whenever I do a production with schoolkids (and now students, it seems), I reach a stage where I think, “Why?” because, unfortunately, there are inevitably those moments of sheer frustration when individuals are late, or simply don’t arrive, for rehearsals. It is difficult when one is working with non-specialist Drama students and there is not…

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Friday 14th August

Today is the birthday of one of my bestest friendies from primary school. At least, that’s what FB reminded me – and why the date resonates vaguely in my head. Funny how we remember things. Funny, too, how we forget so much – at least, the details thereof. While we are devising the performance piece,…

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Thursday 13th August

Hannibal Smith, from the A-Team, used to say, “I love it when a plan comes together.” Well, me too. Sometimes, though, there is just so much work to do, so many frustrations to bear and so, so much energy to expend during the realisation of the plan that you end up wondering if it is…

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Wednesday 12th August

Sometimes I am reminded of the saying that goes something like ‘God only sends you what you can cope with’ (which, of course, has the witty corollary that goes something like, ‘I only wish His understanding of what I can cope with was the same as mine’). Usually this saying is used to refer to…

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Tuesday 11th August

Last night, I was standing in the kitchen preparing supper missing Mum terribly, when David came in and just gave me an enormous hug. I thought that it was if he just knew. A little later, he told us how much he misses her, especially as he is doing a block in obstetrics at the…

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Sunday 10th August

I think that I was born with a ‘mountains are made to be climbed’ mentality, or something like that. This doesn’t mean that I have climbed every mountain I’ve seen, or even every mountain on the farm. It does mean, though, that I am not happy when we go to the farm if we don’t…

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Sunday 9th August

There is a place on the farm the kids call ‘ice heaven’. It is a bend in the river where there is a perennial seepage and which gets no sun, particularly during winter. Each year, there is a layer of ice on the rock – sometimes quite thick really and sometimes very extensive. Whatever the…

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Saturday 8th August

I’ve never really been fond of travelling by car. I’ve always wanted to get to the place and not to lose out on time there – particularly somewhere like the farm, which is very special to me (to all of us) and where we most often go for shorter time periods. To do things along…

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