Jane Ballot

Being me in the world

Sunday 6th September

Today is Mum and Dad’s wedding anniversary. It could, I suppose, be a time of remembering them perhaps more intensely than at others – and, yet, I don’t find myself thinking any more of them than I usually do, which is pretty much all the time, in different ways. The ‘specialness’ of the day is…

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Saturday 5th September

Today it’s a year since I went for the check up and the lump was found. This time last year, I spent the weekend knowing there was something, but not telling anyone. I was also waiting to have a mammogram on the Monday. I remember that I said, a number of times, “I’m having a…

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Friday 4th September

There is a song in ‘Fiddler on the Roof’ that focuses on the importance of tradition. During the song, the character of Tevye talks about how his people would be nothing without their traditions. I think I agree that some traditions are really important. There are others that mean not a very lot to me…

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Thursday 3rd September

Michael and I drove past the dam this evening, just to see the set up where they guys were playing polo. Usually I am fine with the fact that I can’t play at the moment – haven’t been able to for a long time now, because the muscles in my side just wouldn’t deal well…

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Wednesday 2nd August

Sometimes there are days when things just go like clockwork; at others, there just seem to be things that get in the way, plans that are cancelled or too many changes that are made and nothing seems to go as planned. Then, of course, it’s a matter of gritting one’s teeth, sailing ahead and getting…

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Tuesday 1st August

This is my favourite time of year, I think, because it’s about moving towards summer, my birthday is next month and the end of the year with the holidays, Sedge and Christmas is on the horizon. It’s also just about a year since the lump was discovered in my breast that changed everything for me…

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Monday 31st August

Sometimes I have a revalation of a sort, or just a realisation about things and the way they go. I have felt a little like a fraud at times during this whole cancer thing, simply because my cancer seems to have been not that bad, compared to that which so many other women have had….

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Sunday 30th August

Coming to the end of the month always has connotations of payday and bills to pay. It is also, apparently, about going out and spending a whole lot of that money. (I wouldn’t really know this, enjoying spending time watching DVDs with the family, rather than going out jolling.) For me, the end of August…

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Saturday 29th August

I think the most fascinating thing in this world must be people. At least, one of the most fascinating 🙂 Yesterday, at the airport I encountered a whole number of different people, from the couple with overloaded trolleys in the queue in front of me, to the hunter-type dressed in khaki shorts who sat next…

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Friday 28th August

I am becoming a seasoned traveller. Tonight we flew to Bloem for the third time this year to do a workshop. I even knew just where to go to check in and then to go through security. I even knew just where the boarding gate was. (This may have had something to do with the…

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